Freespire Blog

 I was watching a movie earlier today and the one character asked, “what’s your biggest fear?” and without giving it a second thought she immediately listed her top three fears. Now, I know it’s just a movie, but I can’t shake it.  “What’s your biggest fear?” I used to think it was to not get better. That maybe I am just petrified of being in pain or sick for the rest of my life. But I don’t think that’s my fear. I think I just refuse to accept that as truth.  Weakness.  It took me a good minute to just gather enough courage to type out that word. I am scared of looking or feeling weak and not having control. I so desperately depend on my pride to help me look strong and secure and confident.  I think the journey with my health has probably been the one area in my life where I struggle to let go. To wholly lose control. I know that this will be an ongoing journey, it has been for the last fifteen years. I will have to wake up every day and choose hope. Choose jo...